man.how boring can life get???
intensive cheena fer da whole day...
5 pathetic days to my Cheena Os.
wad da freak.
i noe nuts bout cheena.
life's boring as hell now.
did 4 papers last nite.
realli tired.
met *aj*,*da & kaixin* fer supper.
supposed to go home & finish my cheena..
but i ended up fallin aslp.
reach home at 1am..
not tired..
arh...
freak it...

| gOtHbLoOd |



left her thoughts ♥ 3:54:00 PM

at cini now,usin da damn comp.
had acc competition at np.
it kinda sucked.
headed town after tt with *charity* & *benita*...
met *aj*.
went ps to meet *joyce* & *ivan* to donate all my coins to *joyce*..
she had flagday.
so,kinda like supported her.
so bored..
going home late i guess...
realli bored.
i cant study...

| fReAkIn bOrEd |



left her thoughts ♥ 5:02:00 PM

juz came home frm sch.
had cheena paper 2 today.
freak da shit...
i tink i'm gonna flunk my cheena.
bad sign...
slpt yest,
didnt go fer *josh's* bdae party.
sorry kor...
realli bored...
realli realli bored..

| DyIn oF bOrEdOm |



left her thoughts ♥ 4:47:00 PM

arhh...
i'm spendin too much time on da damn computer..
studied half of my cheena..
still haf lots more to go..
not much time left..
-sCrEaMs-
aniwae...
i dun wanna stay home!!!...
or else i'll eat up ALL da FOOD in my HOUSE!!...
i had 2 lunchs???...or lunches??....whicheva,
no such word aniwae...
but..i ate at 12 plus with my daddy..
at 2,i was hungry,
n so i cooked..
oh my..
at da rate i'm eatin..
its no wonder y i'll grow sideways..
i muz STOP...but i cant..
da sight of food...
makes mi go GAGA...
n i'll drool all over...
=(..
*aj* bought me 5 Kinda Buenos yest..
there are 2 pkts left...
-CoveRs mouTh-
please dun tell her...
or she'll start screamin at me..
she'd say i'm horrible..
NNNNOoooooooOOOoo...
i'm a horrible eater...
but i cant stop my eatin..
ARHHHH!!!!...

| gLUtToN |

-A gAl wHo jUz CaNt sToP eAtIn-



left her thoughts ♥ 6:34:00 PM

hmm...
wad did i do this mornin...
vacummed my room...
coz i saw sum creepy crawlieesss on da floor..
i detest da sight of any of them..
so,i decided to KILL them all....*eViL lUfFtErS*
but i ended up vacummin my toes...
i dunno y..
but...it juz happened.
daddy was standin at da door..
stared at me with disbelief..
he muz be wonderin wad da hell was his daughter doin,
vacummin her toes..
hahaha...
well..a vacumm cleaner's to suck up all dust particles rite?
so i was juz makin FULL use of it...=)
....(-_-)'.alrite..its dumb...
if *aj* were to see wad i did..
she'd laugh her head off.....
..hmm...n if she does...
i'll vacumm her mouth...-MwAhAhAhA-..
nah..i'm not so bad..
wont do tt...
gonna haf acc tuition!!..
oh no..
nxt sat's my acc competition..
gotta go Npoly to haf da competition.
scared.....
aniwae...
i shall practice my acc den..
till den...
goodbye....

(=i MiSs yOu=)

|aS hApPy As A laRk |



left her thoughts ♥ 11:13:00 AM

Happy Birthday Mrs Lee...
wished u cld celebrate ur bdae with us.....
-sObs-

cheryl ong
____________________________________________________

*aj* is over at my place...
she's slpin like a sow...
oops....a pig...haha..
cant wake her up...
haiyoz....



|bEing A bItCh|



left her thoughts ♥ 4:40:00 PM

been realli good this wk.
did not go out at nite.
slpt thru da nite.
well,not realli..
kept wakin up...
da weather's freakinly hot...
even slpin with a fan with FULL BLAST didnt help.
not one bit..
i hate to haf da air con on coz it'll give me a block nose.
& i hate tt.
chinese o's comin.
scary...
i shld be studyin,
so wad da hell am i doin here??
SLACKIN.....
oh my....

-myself-
been realli in a fucked up mood lately.
da cause of da friction in my relationship.
hadnt been in da mood to talk to *aj*.
so i'd reply her with one word ans...
i'm sorry..
its not ur fault baby.
its juz me,myself & i.
its not tt we've a prob.
there isnt in da first place.
i'm not in da mood to talk.
not anione in particular.
many things had happened,
it changed my mood completely.
sorry bout da sacarsim.
i'm truly sorry.

| ApOlOgIeS |





left her thoughts ♥ 9:50:00 AM

came back fer ballet.
tired.
nothin excitin happened today.
xcept tt we had our 2.4km run.
sucked...was walkin most of da time.
not in da mood to run..
15 mins i took..
realli lousy.
LiFe?????..
its juz as borin as ever.
but it has to go on.
oh well.
shit happens...
FuCkEd uP lIfE oF mIne...


|ilLuSiOnS |
-dA aTtiTuDe-



left her thoughts ♥ 9:15:00 PM

Mrs Lee,i'll remember you,always...
& u'll always be in my heart...


Mrs Lee,
i missed you today....
looked at ur picture ouside da General office...
stood by the pond & stared at da empty space..
a space were ur car used to occupy..
i wish u were here..
here with us.....
cheryl ong

If We Hold On Together

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith hope and glory
Hold to the truth
In your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams
Will never die
Dreams see us through
To forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

Souls in the winds
must learn how to mend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears
All away
Words are swaying
Someone is praying
Please let us come
Home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams
Will never die
Dreams see us through
To forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

When we are out there
In the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark
We'll feel the light
Warm our hearts
Everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams
Will never die
Dreams see us through
To forever
As high
As souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and I






left her thoughts ♥ 6:29:00 PM

another saddenin day fer us..
was in da hall most of da time..
practicin fer da memorial service fer Mrs Lee.
was singin a song to close da service.
we sang "If We Hold On" and another one....
i'm not realli sure bout tt title...
aniwae..cried at da slide show,
another cryin day for da sch...
realli realli devastatin time..
i dunno how we're gonna get over it.
but we will....
and we will do well for da O levels..
Do Mrs Lee proud...
we love you..

after art,met *aj*.
went town...
walked around n headed home...
wasnt in da mood at all..
i didnt talk much...
sorry *aj*..

|sAd |



left her thoughts ♥ 7:30:00 PM

no sch yest,
so today's da first sch day of da wk..
attendin sch with a huge difference.
not seein Mrs Lee walkin around da classroom block..
its realli a torture..
my heart reaches out to her.
today,juz one wk ago..
i remembered clearly..
we had no Maths revision test..
so sch ended at 2.30 for us..
sum went home..but we stayed..
we were all chattin happily when sum1 ran into class..
tellin us tt Mrs Lee was here...
we scrambled back to our seats..
pretended to study...
moments later,
she walked in..
she looked at us..SMILIN
asked us if we were studyin hard.
we said yes..
she den asked if we had confidence...
we ans with a soft 'yes'..
she laughed n said,"wow,u realli give me confidence".
she told us to go fer it...
n tt we cld all do it..
she said,"JAI YOU"
she looked at me..
told me to explain to *nithya* wad da meanin was.
she thot i told *nithya* to "ADD OIL"
and she laughed..
i remembered so clearly how wonderful she looked..
neither did i realise..
we were THIS much to loosin her..
i miss her presence in sch...
i miss her so much...
had this vision,
that one day,Mrs Lee came back to sch,
recoverd frm her stroke..
we welcomed her with open arms..
& she said..."I MISS YOU GALS".
how i wish..
the time wld come..
where we all cld see her again...
but..the time...
will nv come..
till den Mrs Lee...
we shall meet..
or maybe not...

cheryl ong



left her thoughts ♥ 9:16:00 PM

juz came home..
attended Mrs Lee's funeral service.
feelin realli lousy..
many of us cried like crazy..
when i saw da slideshow,
A tribute to our Principal,
Mrs Caroline Lee.
i broke down..
i realli realli miss her..
5 yrs in this sch..
i've never missed her at all..
now,i juz want her to be alive,
here with us.
but..
den again..
she's gone..
her days in sch will always be remembered..
when i saw her coffin being brought away..
i cried silently,
screamin inside me,not to take her away....
but,as rev Kuan said,
she's happy.
she wasnt afraid of death,
for she's a faithful servant of God.
God has a place for her in heaven.
i noe u're happy,and i'm happy too..
love u Mrs Lee...

cheryl ong



left her thoughts ♥ 5:22:00 PM

-cRies-
been cryin da whole day yest.
devastated......
cried myself to slp........
cried n cried n cried..
realli no mood to do anithin.
i lost my appetite...
i miss Mrs Lee...

___________________________________________________

attended Mrs Lee's wake yest at around 3pm.
went to cck,the Garden Of rememberance...
paid Mrs Lee my last respect...
saw her the last time......
she looked peaceful...
but i want her to wake up..
she cant..
not animore...
she's in heaven......
-cries loudly-
i cried uncontrollably after seein her...
I MISS HER..I MISS HER!!!!!!!!!!!
___________________________________________________

Psalms 23:6

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me.All the days of my life;
And I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever......


psalms 23:4

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,for you are with me;your rod and your stuff,
they comfort me.


Rest in peace Mrs Lee,
I will miss you.
you are da grestest principal...
I love u....

cheryl ong


| deVaStAteD |



left her thoughts ♥ 3:02:00 PM

-CrEiS oUt LoUd-
...GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!..where are u?????
i thot u wld be there to protect her...
GOD!!!!!!!..y muz u take her away.......
she juz left us like tt...
I DIDNT EVEN HAF A CHANCE TO THANK HER!!
MRS LEE........
please come back.......
-CRIES-
i noe its impossible..........BUT!!!!!...
I DUNNO!!!!!!!!!!!.....
GOD WHY GOD???
no one i knew had been taken away from mi juz like tt...
to Heavan she went..
she took me into SMSS,
she cld haf choosen not to..
she cld haf kicked me out of sch,
which she almost did...
but she gave me a chance to stay...
she scolded me for my wrong doings ,
but it was for my own good...
she encouraged me to work harder...
i miss her smile......
she'll smile as she talk.
thou she might be fierce...
but i believe...
now that the family of St Mragarets lost her...
we are sadden by the loss..
it juz happened so quickly..
i still remember her comin to our class 2 days before.
smilin and all,
tellin us to study hard n not be too stressed up..
n the before she collapsed,
she was perfectly fine..
but...
God took her away...
WHY??????
may she rest in peace....
MrS LEe...
thank you..
thank you so much....

_________________________________________________________
this is a poem i wrote...specially dedicated to Mrs Lee,my principal...

GREAT WAS SHE


Great was she,
Who brought us all up,
moulded us into gracious girls.

Great was she,
who made a name fot the school.
Lifted us into God's hands,
Inspiring is and being out support.
Never faillin to give us the best.

Now your gone,
may u rest in peace.
I will miss u dearly.
Please watch upon our sch...
Be the gardian of our sch...
We love u....

cHeRyL[24]
_______________________________________________________

Mrs Lee,
thank you for being out "mother".
We will always be one family.
United as one.
Thank you for being such a paitient principal..
Thank you for takin me in to St Margaret's..
thank you for giving me chance after chance after chance...
Thank You for your support in wadeva we did...
Thank You for all the things u haf done for us.
Mrs Lee,
you are the best,
you brought our sch up,
we rose under ur care.
We'll miss you dearly.
May you rest in peace.
I am sure u are happy noe.
The Lord is takin care of you...

Thou i noe u cant come back,
i pray tt you'll be above.
looin down and keepin watch on us.
i pray for happiness upon you.
Take care Mrs Lee...
You'll always be in my heart..
God Bless you...

cheryl ong.


sadden by the loss...

| prEtTy DevAstAtEd |



left her thoughts ♥ 9:41:00 AM

juz came home..
Fuck..
today's paper sucked..
i tried so hard fer my acc..
harder den before..
but all i get was a fuCkeD uP paper..
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!
i'm PISSED!!!!!!!....
went town after my paper.
which was bout 4 plus...
bumped into *sean*,*pui* n *winnie*.
we went to take neo prints..
first time takin neos wif em..
even thou i haf already known em fer quite awhile..
*aj* came not long after.
left heeren to cini...
went to eat..
loitered around cini fer an hour..
& i headed home...
gonna study after dinner..
i need to score fer da rest of my papers...

|atTiTudE|



left her thoughts ♥ 7:44:00 PM

If Your Heart's Not In It

I'm missing you
Girl even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
It's the last thing that I wanna hear

Chorus:
But if your heart's not in it, for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got something to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
Girl I'll make it easy for you

Chorus:
If your hearts not in it, for real
Please dont try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it

How I wish I could take us back in time
But it's gone too far now we can't rewind
There's nothing I can do
To stop from losing you
I can't make you change your mind
If your heart's not in it

Chorus:
If your hearts not in it, for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it


| mIsSiN yOu |





left her thoughts ♥ 7:00:00 PM

k...no papers tday...YEA..
BUT!..i've got acc tomolo..
scared...
da suckiest thing is tt...
my paper's after sch...
-dAng-
maybe i'll meet *aj* after my paper...

fUCk..
my life is seriously gettin to nowhere...
i'm like a soul floatin in da air.
arh..
fUCk...
FuCk..
FuCK...
fUck...........


sExY,nAuGhtY ,BitChY mE...


I pick all my skirts to be a little too sexy
Just like all of my thoughts they always get a bit naughty
When I'm out with my girls I always play a bit bitchy
Can't change the way I am sexy naughty bitchy me

I'm the kind of girl that girls don't like
I'm the kind that boys fantasize
I'm the kind that your momma
and your daddy were afraid you'd turn out to be like
I may seem unapproachable
but that's only to the boys who don't have the
Right approach or ride that makes a girl like me
wanna hop in and roll

People think it's intimidating
when a girl is cool with her sexuality
I'm a 180 to the stereotype girls like staying home
and being innocent

[ Chorus ]

My mouth never takes a holiday
I always shock with the things I say
I was always the kid in school
who turned up to each class bout an hour late and
When it comes to the guys I'd lay,
I'd always pick the ones who won't figure out that
I was clearly rebel to the idea of monogamy

People think it's intimidating
when a girl is cool with her sexuality
I'm 180 to the stereotype girls like staying home
and being innocent

[ Chorus ]

Sexy...naughty...bitchy...me

People think it's intimidating
when a girl is cool with her sexuality
I'm 180 to the stereotype girl like staying home
and being innocent

[ Chorus ]

I like all of my shorts to be a little too shorty
Unlike all of my guys I like them tall with money
I love all of my nights to end a little bit nasly
Can't change the way I am sexy naughty bitchy me

I pick my Skirts to be sexy
Just like my thoughts a bit naughty
When I'm out with my girls...bitchy
Can't change I am
Sexy naughty bitch me


| lIfE sUcKS |

-hAtEs mY lIfE-



left her thoughts ♥ 4:23:00 PM

did my last yr's mid yr paper fer acc..
AGAIN...fer practice...
scored 68 outta 70..
still not happy...-pOutS-
dun haf ani paper tomolo...
-sighs-..
life sucks.....


| sUcK dIs ShIt uP |

-sHitIfIeD-



left her thoughts ♥ 10:02:00 PM

freak.
i tink i slpt a little toooo much.
was doin acc juz now frm 3.30 to 4 45pm..
felt a little slpy..
decided to slp...
oh my,i juz woke up...
oops.......
wad a pig...

today was my eng paper.
sucked big time......
didnt even understand da compre.
alright, i kinda like got da meanin,
but still....
after da paper...i had chemistry test..
Fuck.....
no mood to do..
plus...
i dun even noe wad in da world i was studyin.
wad da hell......
sum even sat for 15 mins fer da paper..
n went home..
guess most of our systems switched off after da eng compre.
every1 was complanin tt da compre was freakingly difficult..
URgGGGGGGGggggg....
is onli da first paper....
n we all screwed it up....
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!

dearest *aj*..
she's smsin mi n tellin me she misses me...
not gonna tell her i miss her..
coz i dun wanna say..
-sTiCkS oUt tOngUe-
too bad....
coz i'm gonna say it here...
tT......
I DUN MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!........
heeeeeeeeeeee....-sMiLeS WidELy-
k la...
I MISS YOU CAN???
so dun say i nv say arh........
-sHakeS heAd-


| wAdEvA tO wAdEvA |
-jUz dUn bOtHeR-



left her thoughts ♥ 7:09:00 PM

gonna haf acc tuition later.
supposed to go to *nat's* party but i didnt..
sorry *nat*...
supposed to go to shanghai sally..
i didnt go either.....
_______________________________________________________

fri nite.
wanted to stay home to slp,
so tt i wld haf energy to study on sat.
but thanx to SUM PPL...
they told mi i had to get my butt down to monks,
or she'll come my house.
alrite...
fair,i rushed down asap,
guess wad?
i had to wait fer like 2 plus hours fer TT PERSON to come.
wad da fuck....
k,we settled da stuff..
big shit..
they started pointin,screamin with those uncivilized actions.
SUM1 said to me,"BITCH,STOP LYIN"..
HELLO!!!....u denied everythin,n now u're tellin mi not to lie??
HAHAA....thats da biggest joke of da day.
one more thing,
you said tt i lied to u bout mi n aj breakin up.
I DID NOT..
BUT YOU???.....u lied BIG TIME,still DENIED..
n when i brought up this point..
she screamed.."SO WAD IF I LIED??ITS NONE OF UR BUSINESS"..
oh man..wad a contradictary asshole...
so...come on,if u wanna say this?wads da point of me gg down,
wastin my fuckin time??
i was fuming,but i kept my cool.
civilised,educated & well mannered ppl wld juz sit n listen,
settle things with grace n tactfulness.
tts wad i did.
i kept my voice low,i did not scream,neither did i point..
at least i knew how to behave like a lady.
UNLIKE SUM1..
please,your eng's so poor,n yet u still wanna act like,
WHAOOOOO..my eng soooo good..
my first sentence,
"wadeva i said to her,was wad a friend wld confide in a friend"
SIMPLE???...but sadly, not to her..
she was like,"huh?wads confide?"
my gosh.i almost laughed my head off man...
she contradicted herself like no one business.
said she wanted to slap me,
she added tt she wanted to be a passive to slap me.
by all means..turn into a passive n slap mi all u want.
aniwae.when i talked bout wad she said to me,
she quickly added,
"dun anihow say arh,later my stead break up with me arh"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....
since u are soo scared of da truth,
tt ur gf wld break up with u.
look,u were da one who told me to go down
u were the one who took ur fuckin time alrite?
u were da one to contradict urself big time.
n if u wanted to settle YOUR problem,
you wld haf known wad to say rite?
but no...
u cld smile n say,"i realli forgot wad i wanna say"
hahahahaha...
firstly,
you are a person with no moral values,
secondly,
you haf no guity conscious,tts realli bad..
lastly,i tink you suck....
u're like a head without brains..
aniwae...
it was realli a total waste of my time...
how it ended?...
she walked off...
fuck you.
fuck la..
with ur character,it'll get u to nowhere in life.
FUCKERS...............
wadeva fuckers...


| FuCk tHiS sHiT uP |



left her thoughts ♥ 10:40:00 AM

Human beings are complicated by nature and I wouldn't deny that.
You wouldn't believe my profession. But I have a strong passion for what I do.
I'm not a great dancer but dancing its one of my only burning passion in life that keeps me going. =)

A petite girl who loves to socialise and have tons of fun!
I'm patient but don't try to test the limits.
Well,as long as you are not a weirdo,you're most welcomed to join my social circle.
*cheerios!!